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was going thru stuff frm last yr trying to dig out my last last sem de sp project.. but instead found a piece of paper which i tink i wrote after her ting.. realli crash my mood again.. derrick i noe u feel bad.. but do u ever noe tat there r other ppl hu r realli more miserable den u?? so wat u haf no1 hu care abt u?? u tink e world would cry for u or stop moving juz bcoz u tink tat u r miserable?? y dun u change urself n call others?? n 1 of those more miserable ppl is mi rite now.. u tink u r a loner?? y not try being mi......
sry to vent my stress on u derrick.. but e world is liddat.. ppl dun give a damn tat u r miserable anot.. n u tok abt dying all tis crap.. so wat u die u tink ppl will shed a tear for ya?? no.. they will juz laugh their ass off saeing u killed urself juz bcoz u r bored.. change ur tinking.. life have more to it den it is now..
it alwae liddat... i noe how to sae ppl.. but nv learn to sae myself.. i wanna change myself too.. but i juz cant...........

tis was wat i wrote.....

I told myself waiting for you wasn't going to be of any use if you won't return..
Why must I spend every minute of my life thinking of you and waiting for you..
If I had known earlier that you don't feel anything for me, everything i do now isn't of any use..
You left me waiting and aching for you in the dark..
Keeping the painful truth from me that you will never be back in my arms again..

The reason why I like to daydream..
Is because you will never know I'm thinking about you..
The reason why I like to be alone..
Is because you will never find out i like you..
The reason why I like to be by your side..
Is because you were the only one that can make me happy..
but tis were all in e past............


:: I WiSh tO WrItE mY OwN NaMe iN ::