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somehow i cried yesterday..
its been a really really long time since i last cried..
i really dont know what the hell i cried for..
dont know why but i feel very relax after crying..
sometime ago i read a story i think from email..
its about a couple where the girl alway like to stand in the rain..
and the boy never know why and never ask why..
finally when they broke up the boy ask the girl why..
the girl replied she like to stand in the rain so the guy would not notice that she is crying..
thus my nickin msn..
it was a really beautiful story but i forgot most of it..

well today pretty much the same..
java code abit and slack the rest of the time..
andy and ben came visit and wanted to have dinner together..
yet again no one else want to join us so ended up going home....
what sad life we have??

now i realise posting something can be very expensive..
even the box and "bubble wrap" cost money..
going down post office again tomorrow to post fiona's present..
after i figure out a way to wrap the thing up so it wont break..

here something i took from a anime i saw just last week..
about memories about something..
very meaningful to me..
hope u all like it too..
abit hard to understand as it is sudded from some japanese anime..
No matter what memory it is..
I want to keep it in my heart, as I live on believing..
Because I want to believe there is no such memory that you can just forget..
So that someday..
Someday I may become myself who wouldn't lose..
And the someday I'll overcome it..
So it can be a precious memory..
I believe it..

i guess i will be blogging more now..
got too much free time now at home too..
and the best way to keep something out of my head is to do something else....


:: I WiSh tO WrItE mY OwN NaMe iN ::